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 Friday, May 9, 2008  0 comment(s)
 你的舞台是你一个人的生活，我干涉不了的演出。depressing. why is this possible?why not me?even though ya,i make alot of mistakes,but why?i tot i am more suitable?i tot i can make it?ya,i tot...my own thoughts. why i always lost the things that i desire the most?why? we are living in a world of unfairness. i understand that.but why?it is just so...unfair. let me do a summarize for what happen today.interclass bball after sch,H vs L,um,ya.L is v strong,we lost to them and the score is quite distant between the 2 class.but anyway,we tried our best right. anw,i feel sux.bad in almost everything.i dont noe wheres my strength now. maybe i dont even have one. feel like crying now. then after interclass is CS xieren.okay.what should i say?how "happy"to see sec4s leaving or how "happy" to not getting what i wanted?wadever.i have no words to describe my feeling now. keep on wanting to find a corner and start emoing. yup,in the end,i concluded that i am sux. next week level camp.going Malaysia.sharing room with XiaoZhou. not really looking forward to it.dont even noe what i should do on my journey there,and i cant charge my mp3 there coz my charger must be plunged onto computer to charge.5days4nights without music.imagine what kind of life would that be. moreover,we go there play what?play with the camera to get our hwk done? yup,hwks.after level camp is our "beloved" Maths test.my 2 weakest topic is tested.how can i play?i cant even manage my hwk?and the sch is asking us to PLAY hard!i would rather stay in sch or make it sch hol instead. 5days4nights WITHOUT handphone.i noe for sure i cant survive that. really depressed today.should make the post longer.u can ignore this grey part of the post.i am just emoing.ignore me.i feel like nothing.after i reach home at ard7 i go straight into the 10pm mood.i was thinking why i reach sec3,life changes.i just feel so useless.i cant find my position in anywhere.i dont noe how to make new frens.i have no idea of how am i suppose to achieve that something i want.people keep on taking whatever i wanted and take it for granted.i have no idea how am i suppose to pass my nx few terms of sec3 and the whole year of sec4,i cant stick to that few frens i have frm the other class.we cant stay forever anw. i need a door to help me escape from reality.a corner for me to hide myself.to become invisible. i dont want people to pity me,but in my heart,i pity myself. why being so sad?life is so short,how many happy days we have?why not make everyday happy? this is to console myself.but in actual fact,who can think of this when they are sad? i really miss those days when we are all young.when we are running happily in the playground.dont think of anything but just playing.i miss those days,those days whereby good friends are easy to come by.miss those days that i can play without caring for my image with the guys.miss those laughings we made.miss everything that has alr past.miss those missing pieces. s1t1ng1u-snowtears
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