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 Friday, January 4, 2008  0 comment(s)
 我寻找了很久，一直找不到那片只属于我的天空。你总是众人的焦点，有空时才投给我一个不经意的一瞥，而我虽然与众不同，但始终穿梭在陌生的人群中，你的眼神总给我一种错觉，让我忍不住去幻想点什么。你让我感到莫名的快乐，但如果这是一种错觉，那就请你不要这样看着我，就让我一个人从远方静悄悄地看着你，如果根本没有什么，那就不要给我希望，至少我就不会有太多的失望。 i felt like a completely broken person,all my strength had been drained away,they just dont give me an exit that i can escape from these all loads of things...yes,i love those pressure,but to some extent okay?pls dont give me any blows le,i dont think i can stand it anymore,really...now i am still finding a reason to speak up... i am not that kind of open person,like kaiyi,or those kind of loveable people,like jesslyn&yanci&miao2...i feel like nothing,okay,most specifically,i felt like trash...i hate this feeling of being ignored and i hate this feeling of depressing,i dont know how to open up myself to make new frens,i just kept on smiling at people in my class everyday,hoping that i would noe them one day,but i am so tired...tired of smiling like an idiot... Teacher,i am happy that u give me some article job,but now is 4thJan07 alr,and u wan me write something that happened in early december,it wont be published,i tell u,coz its really too late...and one more thing that i didnt tell u is,my smile,my laugh,i know i love to laugh alot in front of everyone,but who can see my tears,laughing make me forget my tears for a moment or so,u all always see the bright side of me,but u never see the emo side of me yet,and to be strong i do not and never want to show it to anyone...i just want to be strong,hide my sensitive part,and appeared merry and happy,inside,i felt so lonely and worried inside,sometime i dont even noe what i am worrying abt... i am tired,but i will kept on smiling at unfamiliar faces in the class,until one day i finally have a closest friend in the new class... as for the BSP,i am totally disappointed...but i will bear it,until sec4,juz coz its the most famous program in DHS,and we can go american for 2 weeks,thats all i wish for...but i dont get to sit with miao,not even in the same LT2,she will be having BSP on monday,and me on tuesday...i am breaking down,now i dont noe what should i do... tmr still got paixi,should go rest now... i am so tired...of everything happened ard me... so i should chose to be anti-social?"..."Larraine,ruonan,miaomiao,ruiting,i miss u all!really...T.T along this way of growing up we have gained so much and lost so much holding back tears is just a part of growing... s1t1ng1u-snowtears
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